I have just spent two hours organising my Economics file. I have to say, I feel pretty accomplished in some ways.
However, due to my lack of experience in doing school-related work *cough* I became exhausted by the end of it, so I didn't feel like finishing my maths homework. I'm sorry, I'll try to do better next time. I'm still adjusting to the disciplined, motivated, hard-working student lifestyle, though I'm not sure how long that's going to last. Wish me luck, people!
...OMG, my parents have started discussing about jobs (for me!) and how I should get get good grades, because it's that little piece of result slip that they'll be looking at. Oh, where did all the years of my sweet childhood go?
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Monday, May 04, 2009
One sheep, two sheep, three sheep~
I feel better. :D
See, I told you it was just that one day.
Yeah. It could happen tomorrow too. And the next day.
It's a never-ending cycle.
I'm still so worked up about World Embryo though, This time, not about the protagonist, but the victims who succumbed to the virus and turned into monsters called Kanshu. The thing is, when they get infected, they will die without realising it and the Kanshu will take over their bodies. The worst part? There's nothing left of the victims when they are killed. No body, not even memories of them will remain. People will forget their existence as if they were never there.
The bright side is that it prevents the people related to the infected from suffering from their loss. But it's still so...ah. There's that one scene where a girl was sitting in the park, waiting for someone, looking for someone, until she completely forgot what is it she was searching. And that was her grandfather, who was slowly erased from her memory as he transformed into a Kanshu.
Oh, woe is me. Haha. I'm talking about a MANGA with a sci-fi storyline. I'm sorry.
I need to get back to listening to NEXT LEVEL. I'm startin to like rollin'!
See, I told you it was just that one day.
Yeah. It could happen tomorrow too. And the next day.
It's a never-ending cycle.
I'm still so worked up about World Embryo though, This time, not about the protagonist, but the victims who succumbed to the virus and turned into monsters called Kanshu. The thing is, when they get infected, they will die without realising it and the Kanshu will take over their bodies. The worst part? There's nothing left of the victims when they are killed. No body, not even memories of them will remain. People will forget their existence as if they were never there.
The bright side is that it prevents the people related to the infected from suffering from their loss. But it's still so...ah. There's that one scene where a girl was sitting in the park, waiting for someone, looking for someone, until she completely forgot what is it she was searching. And that was her grandfather, who was slowly erased from her memory as he transformed into a Kanshu.
Oh, woe is me. Haha. I'm talking about a MANGA with a sci-fi storyline. I'm sorry.
I need to get back to listening to NEXT LEVEL. I'm startin to like rollin'!
Sunday, May 03, 2009
CRACKED.
OMG YOHEI DIED. WHY? WHY MUST HE DIE? HE WAS SO HOT TOO.
*wipe tears away* Sorry, I just finished reading World Embryo, volume 2. And the real story just started too. Yohei dieeed.
I also just bought Ouran High vol. 13, there were some tear-jerking scenes too. Particularly scenes involving Tamaki and Hikaru (seperately). Which is weird, because Ouran is supposed to cheer me up with all the funny stuff they manage to do in it, but not this one.
Sorry for being so emotional. I seem to be giving away a few tears a little too easy these days.
Heck, I even cracked during the parents-teachers meet. Just a little, but I did. And thinking about that particular conversation with my teacher itself is making me feel like breaking it again. Not only that, she thinks me and her, we need a longer talk. We're gonna need boxes of tissue, I bet.
Ah, I don't know. I can't stop thinking about World Embryo right now. I feel like I'm in the same situation as the protagonist. Sure, I'm not being infected by some parasite, nor did I lose anyone important to me, but that feeling of helplessness, wanting to just give up and let it all out, and then comes all these people trying to reach out for him, yeah. Especially his feeling of doubt whether to take their hand or not, whether to trust them to lead him to the right path, whether them saving him will be for better or for worse.
His fear of guilt that may arise from their disappointment when they realise their effort to help him may not work at all.
Wait, that's one's just me. I think. I'm not so sure anymore.
I just hope the reason I'm feeling so emo (literally) is because it's THAT TIME OF THE MONTH. Ask me how I'm feeling any other time, and I might have been able to at least show a fake smile and say I'm fine.
I'm scared of going to school tomorrow, facing all those teachers again. I'm really scared. I'm in my "What have I done all this while" phase, and I don't know what to do.
I still feel so unstable.
*wipe tears away* Sorry, I just finished reading World Embryo, volume 2. And the real story just started too. Yohei dieeed.
I also just bought Ouran High vol. 13, there were some tear-jerking scenes too. Particularly scenes involving Tamaki and Hikaru (seperately). Which is weird, because Ouran is supposed to cheer me up with all the funny stuff they manage to do in it, but not this one.
Sorry for being so emotional. I seem to be giving away a few tears a little too easy these days.
Heck, I even cracked during the parents-teachers meet. Just a little, but I did. And thinking about that particular conversation with my teacher itself is making me feel like breaking it again. Not only that, she thinks me and her, we need a longer talk. We're gonna need boxes of tissue, I bet.
Ah, I don't know. I can't stop thinking about World Embryo right now. I feel like I'm in the same situation as the protagonist. Sure, I'm not being infected by some parasite, nor did I lose anyone important to me, but that feeling of helplessness, wanting to just give up and let it all out, and then comes all these people trying to reach out for him, yeah. Especially his feeling of doubt whether to take their hand or not, whether to trust them to lead him to the right path, whether them saving him will be for better or for worse.
His fear of guilt that may arise from their disappointment when they realise their effort to help him may not work at all.
Wait, that's one's just me. I think. I'm not so sure anymore.
I just hope the reason I'm feeling so emo (literally) is because it's THAT TIME OF THE MONTH. Ask me how I'm feeling any other time, and I might have been able to at least show a fake smile and say I'm fine.
I'm scared of going to school tomorrow, facing all those teachers again. I'm really scared. I'm in my "What have I done all this while" phase, and I don't know what to do.
I still feel so unstable.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
the NEXT LEVEL is here.
LONG AYU-FILLED POST. You may only scroll through, if not interested. butdon'tleavemealone. Where's my 'roflmao' icon?! D:
So, remember when I mentioned that I ordered Hamasaki Ayumi's latest album, NEXT LEVEL, last few weeks? It's finally here! I just asked my friend casually about it, and turns out it was already here since last Saturday, and she forgot to tell me. Right. I was wondering whether it got lost in the mail or something all this time, and she had the heart to forget. T___T
Anyway, it's here. It's was released last month, and download links were floating all over AHS, and the temptation to just download was soooo great. But, hey, I managed to pull through and survived today. XD
There seems to be a mix up in the order. The version I wanted was the CD+DVD, and the first press special is a blue CD casing. Somehow, when it arrived, it was the 2CD+DVD version! Which means I have to pay an extra $10 for it. The good thing about the that version is it is a limited first press only, and I have an extra CD which contains the audio from her Premium CDL 2008-2009. The BAD thing is, the first press special is a PINK case! Oh the horrorz to have it displayed on my cd shelf. And I paid $79.40 for THAT. D:
So, remember when I mentioned that I ordered Hamasaki Ayumi's latest album, NEXT LEVEL, last few weeks? It's finally here! I just asked my friend casually about it, and turns out it was already here since last Saturday, and she forgot to tell me. Right. I was wondering whether it got lost in the mail or something all this time, and she had the heart to forget. T___T
Anyway, it's here. It's was released last month, and download links were floating all over AHS, and the temptation to just download was soooo great. But, hey, I managed to pull through and survived today. XD
There seems to be a mix up in the order. The version I wanted was the CD+DVD, and the first press special is a blue CD casing. Somehow, when it arrived, it was the 2CD+DVD version! Which means I have to pay an extra $10 for it. The good thing about the that version is it is a limited first press only, and I have an extra CD which contains the audio from her Premium CDL 2008-2009. The BAD thing is, the first press special is a PINK case! Oh the horrorz to have it displayed on my cd shelf. And I paid $79.40 for THAT. D:
I watched it once I got home. I watched her PVs that I didn't download. I have to say...boring. I think the only one I really liked was 'Sparkle'. It's actually a pretty weird PV, with an excessively cute Ayu in a gaudy dress complete with the puffy sleeves, and an excessively sexy Ayu in a red catsuit. (The making showed that she was actually having a hard time walking in it, lol)
Here are a few screencaps (credits to eneabba.net) of excessively cute Ayu and excessively sexy Ayu.
The other two PVs that I haven't watch was NEXT LEVEL and Curtain Call. Both songs are the soothing type, but the PVs are pretty monotonous, lack of variety of scenes and clothes. NEXT LEVEL just features her driving a convertible on a highway, although she looks really pretty there! Curtain Call is reminiscent of Pride, "a diva in a PV" storyline but she looks less glamarous here, even walking barefooted across the hollywood set. It was even her own suggestion to walk without shoes, and cut half the gown off so that people can see. It originally had a mermaid tail, and ow without it, she looks so simple, which I think is the look she was going for.
Final cut:
That's it with the DVD. And now, the songs. I don't feel like talking about any except for these two songs, which made me totally forgot about the rest and they are identity and LOVE 'n' HATE.
Both songs' music and arrangement were done by Yuta Nakano, and this guy is amazing at mixing orchestra and rock, evident in talkin' 2 myself (which I happen to love as well) and LOVE 'n' HATE especially. You should just listen to it, I love'em.
Here are a few screencaps (credits to eneabba.net) of excessively cute Ayu and excessively sexy Ayu.
It was obviously a parody of some sort. Ayu was even laughing at herself in the making. It's true that in real life Ayu has both these images, cute and sexy, just not to the extreme as shown in the PV, lol. The song itself is actually leaning more towards the sexy type, so the cutesy Ayu singing it didn't really make much sense. XD
From the making:
Final cut:
That's it with the DVD. And now, the songs. I don't feel like talking about any except for these two songs, which made me totally forgot about the rest and they are identity and LOVE 'n' HATE.
Both songs' music and arrangement were done by Yuta Nakano, and this guy is amazing at mixing orchestra and rock, evident in talkin' 2 myself (which I happen to love as well) and LOVE 'n' HATE especially. You should just listen to it, I love'em.
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 「0」
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
I knew from the start
That it's really impossible
Even so ...
I only wated to dream
That my dream would come true
Just for a moment
* I took the courage to approach you
Because I wanted to be loved by you
But I stayed as far as I could from you
Because I didn't want to be disliked by you
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 「0」
It must be true
That you should not behave
Unlike yourself
I'm surprised myself
That this wound seems deeper
Than I thought
** Just because I love you
It would be the best way for me to disappear
If I could hate you
I would rather be better off
The counting voice for the start and the end
Sounds heartlessly
The answer you gave
Is too tender to me
It makes me sad and feel pain
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
1 2 3 4 「3」「2」「1」「0」
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
I knew from the start
That it's really impossible
Even so ...
I only wated to dream
That my dream would come true
Just for a moment
* I took the courage to approach you
Because I wanted to be loved by you
But I stayed as far as I could from you
Because I didn't want to be disliked by you
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 「0」
It must be true
That you should not behave
Unlike yourself
I'm surprised myself
That this wound seems deeper
Than I thought
** Just because I love you
It would be the best way for me to disappear
If I could hate you
I would rather be better off
The counting voice for the start and the end
Sounds heartlessly
The answer you gave
Is too tender to me
It makes me sad and feel pain
* (repeat)
** (repeat)
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
(hahahaha) NoNo NoNo
1 2 3 4 「3」「2」「1」「0」
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Hey, you there
Who take the trouble to share time and space with someone else
To cover for your loneliness
With a neutral conversation or something
But have become even lonelier
However skillfully you may decorate yourself
You can't match the truth
You know?
To confront directly in spite of my bitter experinces
Is my ID, ID, ID, ID
It's not important how I'm viewed
What I need is how I should be
Hey, you there
Who just force your opinion on someone else
Saying that you are thinking of him or something
With a look that you have done something good
Just for your self-satisfaction
However skillfully you may decorate yourself
Your real intention is easily seen
Don't you notice?
Not to be able to say yes cleverly to everything
Is my ID, ID, ID, ID
*It's not important how I want to be thought of
What I want to keep is how I want to be
What I need is how I should be
What I want to keep is how I want to be
Who take the trouble to share time and space with someone else
To cover for your loneliness
With a neutral conversation or something
But have become even lonelier
However skillfully you may decorate yourself
You can't match the truth
You know?
To confront directly in spite of my bitter experinces
Is my ID, ID, ID, ID
It's not important how I'm viewed
What I need is how I should be
Hey, you there
Who just force your opinion on someone else
Saying that you are thinking of him or something
With a look that you have done something good
Just for your self-satisfaction
However skillfully you may decorate yourself
Your real intention is easily seen
Don't you notice?
Not to be able to say yes cleverly to everything
Is my ID, ID, ID, ID
*It's not important how I want to be thought of
What I want to keep is how I want to be
What I need is how I should be
What I want to keep is how I want to be
(translation credits: masa)
As a conclusion (woohoo), the album is pretty mediocre, but a few songs definitely saved it.
I won't be ordering anymore stuff as of now. I really need to get my consumer rationalism to come back to me, now that this is over. Haha. I plan, any other things that I want, I will only buy if I see it by chance. (Which rarely happens in Brunei, so lets hope I could go to Singapore again! XD)
As a conclusion (woohoo), the album is pretty mediocre, but a few songs definitely saved it.
I won't be ordering anymore stuff as of now. I really need to get my consumer rationalism to come back to me, now that this is over. Haha. I plan, any other things that I want, I will only buy if I see it by chance. (Which rarely happens in Brunei, so lets hope I could go to Singapore again! XD)
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