My wants.

Finally! This computer is...MINE!!! After one whole day of not using it with any privacy at all.


Anyway, yesterday was quite fun. What's so fun about a school day? Well, it's mainly fun because of Kendo. XD Yazin-senpai and Shinchan/Zool-senpai came ^^ The training, was somehow extra crazy yesterday until even I was excreting gallons of urea, excess salt and excess water through the sweat pores of my body. The training was mainly about reaction timing with the dreaded whistle making it's return. Oh right, and Nazz came in the middle of training. *waves*

After so long of not practicing kiri kaeshi, well, wow. I suck bad, and my speed was slower than I remembered. XDDD I need someone in my house to practise kendo too, so that I can torture'em. I'm targetting my 11-year-old sister. BAHAHA.

And it was Riku's second time shiai! Against Ali-senpai and Yazin-senpai. And wow, I praise her for being daring enough to use jodan no kamae and doing the tsuki! Not sure if it was actually allowed for her, but what the heck. It seemed like they were having fun. When Ali and Yazin were shiai-ing, I realised that I haven't been seeing an actual shiai for soooo long, since the last time I came to central training. Huhuhu.

Anyway, training ends. This is the funny part. We would as usual rei after mokusou, then Ali will talk, and we'll rei one last time. This time, we rei-ed, many times because well, I don;t know. There were unrelated things they talked about, but still. XD

Oh yeah, Chris came, and he wanted to take photos with us as proof that he does practice kendo to his friends and family. Poor thing. XD

After training, went to lecture theatre for our *sigh* second last japanese language lesson. We learnt about verbs. And there are some announcements. There are two offers from the japanese embassy to go to Japan! One is at the end of this year, in December, a one-week Japan tour, paid by the Japanese Government! And the second offer is a one-year study in a Japanese highschool! But the downside to the second offer is, once you get back to Brunei, you'll have to resume to the year you were studying before you left for Japan. T____T

I doubt that I can join the Brunei Kendo's Japan Tour next year, so this could be my last chance of going to Japan! And my dad had allowed me to apply for the one-week tour in Japan! Su...sugooooiiiii!! There's also a possibility of home stay, which would be cool because this'll get me to see the real-life japanese daily life. T__T I can really cry of happiness right now. Because I would really want that. Really, really, truly. I sound so friggin desperate only because I am.I don't consider myself as a japanophile because I think that is too extreme, but I still am in some ways interested, you see.

21st Japanese Speech Contest Singing Performance

Sorry, I did not get the chance to post last Sunday. Or rather, I didn't want to since I was still waiting for the photos Lylah took with her digicam.

I arrived at school around 7.30+a.m. Haha, apparently, my shirt was too...white. We were supposed to wear light brown, but well, I needed to avoid blouses and besides, who cares. Then O saw Froggy, and my reaction? "Holy Shit! She looks like a mum!" And then Lylah came. My reaction? "Holy shit! She looks like MY mum!"

Right. So we went on the bus, all the way to UBD. I sat with kaza and we *chatted* about *stuff*. LOL I can't say much about this part because they are private and confidential. And also because I found out a paparazzi is checking out my blog. You know who you are. And to others out there, I can't help it if most of my afternoons at school are spent with Kaza, and I am not a pedo, mind you. XD

We knew Zaru-senpai and Nadzif-senpai were in the Speech contest. Olivia was also in the contest.

ANYWAY, we got there. We practiced more under in the basement, (LOL it was so dark) and we took pictures there too. We let the Elementary One practice with the radio, while we Elementary Two practiced by ourselves. Saaaad.

When we went back into the hall, who did we see? LOL It was Ali-senpai, and quite unexpectedly.
We sang:

• Okazaki Ritsuko - For Fruit Basket (This song has been reserved since last year)
• Otsuka Ai - Planetarium (It was Froggy's Solo, but we sang the chorus together)
• YUI - Good-bye Days (My favourite YUI song other than TOKYO and Tomorrow's Way :D)

When the Elementary One sang, well, all I can do was bite my thumb. I didnt want to be mean, so I tried to not listen to them. It's the best thing I can do. I guess it just sort of reminded us of our last year's performance, when we were Elementary One. The horrors, mate, was too much.


But I guess we did okay. The confetti during Planetarium caught everyone off-guard, but they clapped. Haha, we tried to sync it with the firework sound during the bridge of the song.

We also saw Lim Han-senpai, who took photos, and had this bangang, have-I-seen-you-somewhere look when he wanted to take a photo of us on stage, focusing at my group which also includes Lylah and Kaza, fellow kendokas. LOL Maybe he didn't remember.

After the performance, we got back to our seats, and I sort of got bored with the event since I couldn't understand a thing the advanced level speakers were saying! Maybe because their language is...advanced. So we looked through Ali-senpai's kendo magazine. SIgh. I fonly we understood what the magazie was talking about. Well, at least there were pictures.

Oli won the Most Otstanding Speech Award for Beginner's Level with her speech topic "My Kendo". Awww. and Zaru-senpai won Most Outstanding Speech Award for Advanced Level with his speech topic "Blue Planet"! Omedetou!

After that, unofficial photo-taking session for us, when the audience were gone. And then we had to sweep the stage because of our confetti. XDD Right.

And then, itadakimasu! LOL the food was nice. After that, Kaza and I gobbled down lots of watermelon. Lylah joined in. A man insisted on us taking the whole thing home. XD When we were on the way out, I was dared to grab another piece of watermelon. Because of my undying love towards watermelon, I did. Besides, it's not like I get to eat watermelon always! I choked o it, and everybody laughed. Turns out ALi was still there and he was staring. Kaza grabbed another one soon after that. XD

Gaaaa...suika ga sukiii!

We got on the bus, back at our original seats, and we looked at the photos. Then, Kaza, Froggy and I listened to YUI - TOKYO. Seriously, that song has a calming effect. Makes me sleepy and calm. Kaza felt the the same way. It's true, you know. That song is so...wow.


Ja, shashin!

Bahaha. Me with the typical peace sign.

Mother #1 and Daughter.
Lylah (Mother #1) and her two daughters.

Mother #1, Kaza, Froggy (Mother #2), Me

Lylah, Anati, Froggy, Maj, Kaza

Kaza, Maj. (Kaza making the infamous sign from Nobuta O Produce. It's the sign that Yamapi would make and say "Konkon!" Did Kaza purposely did that or... :X)

ANd I also got my kendo pictures!

First Time. :D

*Prepare for very long post*

Kyaahooooo~

Today is the 23rd August 2007. Today is one of the most memorable days of my life. Today we had kendo. Today, was my first kendo shiai(kendo match).

At first, I totally rejected the idea of my shiai-ing since the last two weeks because I know I was not ready. I was scared. I was TERRIFIED. Mostly, in my imagination, I can see me standing there, against whoever it was I was fighting against, totally frozen, heart beating faster than that of a cheetah and on the verge of fainting.

Today, as time passed, I couldn't even concentrate in class. Then, I tried to assure myself that Ali will forget that I have to shiai today, or that he'll pick someone else. Things got even worse when I saw Takeshi. I felt like, "Shit. I have to shiai twice?! With both of them?! D:" It was not a good feeling.

After that, Ali asked me if I wanted to wear the bogu. At that time, the only reason I agreed (reluctantly, for that matter) was because CCA is ending and this should be a good way to end it. I just feel sad thinking about it.

Ok, so I felt all panicky and nervous when I first wore the bogu. I was tumbling everywhere I go. My vision was limited. I can't turn my head. The chin pad was directly under my chin, so I can't talk much either. I trained kiri kaeshi. It was much more difficult with the bogu.

I became the receiver for 'men' cut for the day. My god, now I know how the senpais felt, to be hit on the head countless times, especially by the ones who can't control their cuts, it was...irritating. Oh yeah, since it was my first time, they bullied me. Namely-Kaza, Jyn, Naz-boy and Riku. Thanks a lot, guys.

And then, came the time. Well, it wasn't exactly a shiai, but it was still the real thing. Here I was, in a bogu for the first time, and I am going to hit and to be hit for real. Scary, is it not? First, I went up against Takeshi. I didn't know how I feel. The supporting shouts coming from the sides were quite helping, I guess. I wasn't moving. He wasn't moving.

Then, I remembered Kaza's words, "Wake them up. Don't make them feel bored." This was because, last week, during Muafah's first shiai, well, yeah. Gaaaaa.

Anyway, well, he was waiting for me to move. The shyness was somewhat gone, replaced by adrenaline. So I moved. I attempted to hit numerous times. One hit passed through. :D

Totally unexpected. And that is a 'men' cut after I did harai waza. I was expecting him to block, but he didn't and I sort of got a point. I wonder if he did that on purpose or was it really me. Whatever. I just felt good.

Everyone was really amazed. The applause was long and good. I heard "whoa!" "Fuyoo" and all sorts. Wow, how kambang can I get. But I didn't manage another point after that. But still, haha. It felt good.

Then, I rested while Ali shiai-ed with Takeshi. I did mokusou, and then watched the match. Which was sort of useless because I couldn't see much.

After that, I was against Ali. I guess I was quite exhausted, so my movements were more on the 'antam-antam' side.He was ruthless. D: At least I only received one 'tsuki' thrust and managed to block the others. Huhuhu. But still, I tried my harai waza again, I didn't succeed. The fight with him was a little disappointing, to me and to the others watching as well. Oh well, I tried. I have to admit, I did sort of rushed around. I did more defending than attacking. Gah.

After that, after the final group mokusou and rei, it was time for the talks and..how do you say this? Forgive me but I felt so kambang when i got praised for trying. I shall always remember the words "Well done!" coming from him. Hey, maybe to them it was just a formality but I'll just imagine that it came from the heart.

What Kaza and Naz-boy said after that also made me....hey, is there another word for kambang?! They said, for a first-timer, I did good. I don't know how to translate their words here. They said they felt, you know, excited during my shiai. Like, happy when I managed to hit, disappointed when I didn't, haha. Aww. The unexpected successful 'harai men' I did, the 'do cuts' I attempted, as Kaza said, were nice and fast although they didn't hit. That I did not realise because I practically suck at Do. I was just glad what I imagined didn't come true.

Oh yeah. I have a new name right now. Doraemon. Apprently either Lylah or Jyn started it. Thanks a lot. Because they said I looked like Doraemon in the bogu. Seriously. Unbelievable. Am I supposed to feel flattered or insulted? XD

Anyway, pictures and videos are still with Lylah. She brought her digicam. I mean, WTF. Was she expecting this all the time?! XD The pictures weren't clear though, but still. When I have the time, I'll put them up. Maybe even the video. Hmmhmmhmm.

GAAAAA. I still feel it. After CCA, Kaza and I reviewed my mistakes. Too much kote-do. And the harai waza were too big and obvious. My reflexes were slow. Yeah. I don't think there's a chance for me to shiai again some other time. I guess I'll just have to wait, if I do get the chance.

It was fun while it lasted.

Now, I can feel the soreness in my left thumb where Takeshi hit me by accident. there's a little wound too. Well, it was a good thing I clipped my nails this morning, or else it could have gotten worse. Kaza also said to be prepared for a very sore throat tomorrow considering the way I kiai-ed at that time. LOL, her name appeared a lot in this post.

One last thing, I want to thank Kaza on the advices and tips she gave me, though I didn't have the opportunity to apply it.There wasn't a chance. But she did gave me courage. Along with the others during the fight. Thank you thank you~

Ja, long post has ended. BAHAHA.

/Edit/ I just realised that when I re-read this post, the words weren't really the ones I'm looking for. The feeling is just indescribable, I guess. All I can say is "GAAAAAA~ :DDD"

Ureshikunaiii. :|

Lets see. I got my chem marks. I barely passed. But it was a 'pass' nevertheless. My Bio marks were, at the very least, disappointing. I mean, I just have this theory in my head. If I pass, "Yay!" but if I fail, I would rather get 20% for all I care, because those numbers just show you that there is no hope in passing, and I'll continue living after that. But when you get 40+%, it's just so depressing when you actually had the chance to pass, but didn't, mainly due to careless mistakes. Makes you want to go scream and curse, hit and punch something. Sure, it's a typical way of releasing pressure, but it works. Well, since I have to wait - I can't just throw tantrums in class - I stayed quiet. Really quiet. I shut my ears to everything they were talking about. I didn't even want to discuss the answers. because it was useless.

Anyway. Kendo tomorrow. I do hope not many are coming to school again tomorrow, so that we don't have to study.

And ow shite. Maths is tomorrow. Shite. I ain't feelin good.

I don't know why is so hard for me to study, but when the marks come out, I became emo, feeling like I don't deserve the marks, yet it still does not motivate me to study. I must have some sort of studying disability.

Oh yeah. I had an amusing conversation (if that's what you call it) with my econ teacher this afternoon. He saw me at the concourse with Syarifah and Kaza, so he asked:

Sir: How were your exams?
Me: How are the result?
Sir: I haven't marked yours. How were your exams? (Yeah, majal)
Me: Am I supposed to be honest with you?
Sir: Yes!
Me: *horrified* Emm...students aren't supposed to be honest with their teachers!

And then he left. Phew. Syarifah laughed. Kaza was...well, as usual, bangang. I was still in fear of him coming back and asking me again.

But honestly, of course I don't want to tell him that I definitely shuck bhad in me exhams. GAAAA. Curses.

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I just realised that my previous post was the 100th one. That is quite surprising. usually when I write in blogs, I would normally get fed up some time and end up deleting it. *shrug*

My exams ended today. I'm supposed to go all "Yay!" But well, you see, I'm not. Partly because I know I sucked, partly because...IT'S NOT YET OVER. Oh the horrorzzz. The eal thing is just...some time away.

And, and, and...more bad news! CCA is ending in a few more weeks! GAAAA. That was the only time I have for Kendo and now it's ending? D: I can't come to wednesday trainings, too!

...Maybe I should negotiate with my dad. GAAAAAAA.

Why is life so cruel?

Hah. Now I sound so...lame.

________________________0(_ _)0________tasuketeee~__________

Ja, until some other time.

Hahaha

Hey. I'm currently taking a break from studying.

Wait. Hold on. Pause. ...Studying?

Sigh. Right. Sorry for lying.

I'm just waiting for my dad to send me to maths tuition, the only other place where I can study because Ms. Henny is just so shweet.

Wheeeeeeee kendo. Haha. I was not the chosen one this week. However, next week...well. I have to. No other choice, I guess. DONTWANTTOTHINKABOUTITX)

Somehow, I was exhausted. Sweating. Weeeeird. It was a windy day. (Yes, we had Kendo outside again) We learnt hayasuburi Ver.2! It was...confusing. My legs weren't really that coordinated with my hands. That hayasuburi made my shinai felt heavy. Gah.

After 12.30, went to the lecture theater, no one was there yet. So I ended up lying on the floor, directly under the air-conditioner, with my bag as my pillow. My school uniform was in the bag (I was still wearing my kendogi and hakama), so it was quite comfy. Kaza came and she laid on the benches. Seriously, no idea why we were tired. Lylah wasn't tired.

Then, hanged out with Kaza in her class til 4PM+. Teehee. "Talking time"! Confessions. Laughs. Those stuff. Of course, she's the one talking, I'm the one listening. What do I have to talk about anyway? Turns out to be an almost similar case to Man's! XD Can't exposed it. I promised and I don't want the same thing to happen again D:

Blarrrrrr. Only updating when there's kendo stuff. What am I doing. Sorry, my life isn't that interesting anymore. Kendo and school is basically it. And I don't want to talk about school.
Or the exams. My parents still doesn't know about it. Shhhh.

...A.W.K.W.A.R.D

Qualifying exams are in the next three days.

I didn't come to training last night, which was useless if did because there was no training thanks to the Sepak Takraw Tournament.

Kendo today...was not much. We had to use the concourse again because everyone was too lazy to put the chairs and tables in the auditorium away. We did not do much. Yazin came. Ali was late. He wasn't even there to teach us. Just...observing? Yazin went through the small details which seemed to have been neglected through time like our ashi sabaki, grip of the shinai, posture etc. We only did the basic cuts throughout the whole CCA. It was Muafah and I who didn't do much because we had to be the receiver, replacing Jyn and Reno. Kaza injured her knee so she was just watching.

Something surprising could happen next week, though I was hoping that he was joking or he might forget about IT.

I shall mention it next week if it does happen, to avoid embarrassment.

Japanese Class was dull because SOME were late and we had to wait for them.

It still feels awkward, man. You know, after what I've done to him, it really feels awkward just being around. I felt like I didn't deserve this friendship. :/

BLABLABLABLABLABLABLABLA

...I don't even know why I bother to talk about this.

Oh yeah, druing japanese, Cg Shamry as usual made lame jokes. I couldn't stand so I shouted to Fatin who was sitting at the back of the lecture theatre while I was standing in front.

Me: Tiiin! Spell after me! L!
Fatin: Ah..? A!
Me: M!
Fatin: E!

Of course everybody laughed. It was a light moment for all of us. Nitta-sensei is lovng this November. NOOOO. And it could also possibly be the last year for Japanese Language Club for Maktab Sains. T_T

Youth Day Exhibition||Kendo Demo

I went there today. ^^ And we had so much fun.

Lets see, Riku picked me up at 1.30PM. We did nothing much, other than demo at 2PM. We were like walking around all over the place.

Oh yeah, Tiqah talked me into trying out boxing. It was funfunfun. Sure, I totally suck at dodging and hitting them, but what the heck. I fought with Tiqah, Adri/Zack and Cahaya/Raito. Tiqah is good. When I fought with with Cahaya who was effinly tall, it was so easy for him to hit me on the head. And I literally jumped a lot, trying to punch his face. I got addicted to boxing today, but we didn't get to fight much because others wanted to try too. When Tiqah punched my face, I think my tooth started to bleed. Ouch.

Other kendokas were gathering at the boxing booth too. Zack and I were wearing our gi and hakama, as well as the boxing 'gloves' and headgear. People stared.


I went to the softball booth and tried it out. The people there made some lame jokes that I might hold the bat the wrong way, as in, holding it like a shinai and stuff, but what the heck. And I suck. Haha.


Then I went to the Wushu booth. Nothing to try out there, butit was cool. He explained alot and besides, there were so many things to talk about. It was a pity though that there was only one guy there.

After that, we headed to the Tae Kwan Do booth (did I spell that right?), because Eddy-chan wanted to try to break the thingie by punching. You know, those pieces of rectangular..thingies. She managed to break, but when she tried two pieces, her knuckles went green. She noticed her punch was wrong. Gosh. It was definitely bruised. She had to get it bandaged.

I went back and forth to the boxing booth..and well, boxed. XD It was seriously funnnnn~! My face got punched numerous times. Especially mouth and eyes. Freaky. It was a good thing we wore the gloves.

And then, I was back at the Kendo booth. I was standing innocently next to Johnny the Bogu while Nazmi/Reno was practicing Nitto-ryu on it. Well, stupid me. Reno accidentally hit me on the right side of my head. It was definitely a strong hit. It hurt a lot although I sort of denied it. He apologised profusely but that wasn't really the end. My head started to get all dizzy. I decided to walk around, mainly because there were no seats to sit on, and I did not want to just stand there.

I went to the boxing booth again. This time, due to the headache, I decided to let all my frustration out on Tiqah and Zack. I literally boxed my heart out. Sorry ^^;. Not that I manage to hit them, but attempting to hit was already good. Though, the man at the booth said that I looked as if I was street-fighting. I guess, fighting antam-antam. XD

It was not enough. That was for sure. So I went to the Dart booth. LOL. I suck. But hey, it was fun. I screamed while throwing all the darts. It felt good. I guess then that was enough.

Second kendo demo, I missed it because I was at the Dart Booth. Sad.

It was all picture-taking after that. Soshite, owarimasu!

Nazz, Shinchan, Raito, Me, Kaza and Eddy-chan with Johnny the Bogu.

Standing L-R: Eddy-chan, Riku, Mina, Nazz, Pau, Zaru, Zack, Hafiz, Keem
Sitting L-R: Me, Kaza, Aziz

So I was addicted to boxing.

Err. Same people.

Same. Except No Keem and got Raito in front. XD

Darn. I wish I had some pictures of me boxing. Huhuhuhu.

qwerty (I likes ze wurd)

We had kendo at the concourse yesterday. It was windy and amusing. Everything was flying. Bags, bottles, chairs and shinais. My hair was blocking my view. Muafah and I couldn't concentrate because there were so many yellow cars passing by. It was...irresistible. Some people skipped training because it was held at the concourse *starestare*. Apparently, we're going to use the concourse for the next few weeks because the audi and girls' hostel will be used for exams. NOOOOO. I hope that is not true. We always misled some people into believing we are samurais of some sort. We're actually doing some preparations in time for the resurrection of a shogun. Right.

I might and might not join the demo this Sunday.

We have bio practicals tomorrow.

I haven't study.


*off to Sir Bio's Bio blog*