Does it even matter anymore? I want to stop going to school, but well, parents and their expectations. "You must go to university >:O" Damn it. I know that if I stop, I couldn't be bothered to look for work, but if I continue this blah journey towards the highest level of edukation (ooohhh...ahhhh...), what happens if I don't have the willingness?
Teachers ask: What do you want to be?
Me: Oh, my mum wants me to be an economist, my dad hopes that I could have my own business. Teacher: What do you want to be?
Me: No frickin' idea.
You see, I don't plan my future. I hate planning stuff, organising and whatnot. When things don't turn out as planned, people get ugly. And I hate that. Hate is indeed a strong word, but that's exactly what I feel. I like thinking about the past though, very slow to move on. I'm weird like that, so don't bother.
I want to talk about lighter stuff now. Don't want to turn this one into another depressed one.
You see, I'm in love. Very much.
I am in love with...AyuShuya<3.
I love you too, Ayu.
Awu bah, I am just too pathetic for my own good. I can't help it. Besides, I am much more comfortable seeing two people fall in love rather than myself. God, that just sounds so voyeur-ish.
You see that? Even Shuya is laughing awkwardly. Sorry, man.
But they are just so sweet. You see, when I first got to know Ayu, the first PV that attracted me was My Name's WOMEN, wit Shuya looking all pretty and Ayu hot.
Yes, believe me, that is Shuya. With make-up on, obviously. The other male dancers too, but why would I even bother screencapping them? And yes, Ayu was about to kiss Shuya, except she decided to throw him off the stage when they were centimetres away from each other. HOT.
Technically, the first P I saw from Ayu was Rainy Day, but what do I care about some woman sitting on a bench, in the rain, singing to a dog? Maybe if the dog was Shuya, it would've been a different thing altogether.
Anyway, honestly, I didn't care about him much at that time, because my eyes were set on another dancer. Then, I accidentally found out about Shuya, like his name. And then I realised Shuya's been playing Ayu's lover quite a few times. During concerts, sometimes dancers get solos or main character, let's see. Mitsu got one in AT05 for Game and Naoto did a solo for Carols. Then in AT06, Naoto did another solo for Rainy Day. In both concerts, Shuya wasn't that...acknowledged yet? Although he did get special roles where there's only him and another dancer with Ayu. Getting closer XD
Suddenly, AT07, BOOM. Shuya got THREE lead roles. FIVE, if you consider the special screens. Taskinst---> Until That Day...--->Appears--->Part of me (plus special screen)
Oh hey, I photoshopped this! Haha. I want that scene, and they didn't have it. Might as well make one of my own! From the two screencaps below:
Sexy in Until that Day...
Romantic in appears.
Emotional in part of Me.
Other than that, he performed a solo for Fated twice, during a-nation and CDL 07-08. Fated became my faourite song because it reminds me of his solo. And in AT08, he has another solo, HANABI. My Ayu favourite even before I know he was going to do a solo.
Now, I know that even with all these, it's possible that their relationship is simply platonic and my feet are firmly on the ground. Maybe they're really close friends at most. O, who knows, long lost brother as fans have claimed they have similar facial features. Maybe Shuya was given so man roles because he is one of the main selling points nowadays as well. Since, from the screams during concerts, he got the loudest among the dancers. Besides, she might be accused of "pulling a britney" if she goes out with her dancer. But, I can keep on dreaming. Really.
I love you, Shuya.
I love you too, Ayu.
Let us run away now. Cheerio~
This is what you get for asking me to update, people. Haha. Ever wonder how I managed to skip from coplaining about life to swooning over Ayushuya? XD
You know what, this post is basically a repeat/summary/another point of view of this post.
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