So, what's next?

We went to Pizza Hut last night. Yay, I got my long-waited lasagna, finally.

Now that the hype and excitement is over, what's next? Teachers have been urging us to think about our scholarship applications and career paths already. I don't know. I'm not really up to it, yet. I have low self-esteem. I don't like planning, because when things don't go according to plan, I break down and go all panicky and emo and depressed. Same goes here, planning my future. I know it's important and all, and "if you don't plan, you're only preparing for failure" blablabla. I don't do long-run plans. Short-run, I guess once in a while plans automatically come up, but this...NO.

I just want to tell you, I am scared. As my teacher said, "A Levels is not meant for everyone." I am so scared thinking that I might have chosen that right subjects. I'm scared that my interests clashes with my abilities. Like Economics, I like the subject, but sometimes, I'm just in no way good with it.

Boohoo to a serious post.

'O' Level results were out today, around 11.30. At least, I think so, since it was the end of a period and when I walked out of my class to go my next one, I hear the oh-so-classical "The 'O' Level Results Are Out" Day quote, "OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG BANAR KAH?? BANAR KAAHH??!!! RESULS KELUAR UDAH!!!! OMGOMGOMG!!!!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!!"

I was surprisingly calm, on the outside. While the others ran around the school, Froggy and I stayed in the very, very quiet bio lab with our teacher. We talked and stuff. In the end, when things seem to have settled, we finally walked up to the computer lab. That was when started to have trembling legs. Didn't wanna lose my cool, but hey, it was an important day. So I walked to a computer with only 3-4 students clicking their fingers away on it, and searched for my name.








I GOT 8 'O's, BABBYYYYY!!!!

Eng- A
Maths - A
B.Melayu - B
Biology - B
Physics - B
Chemistry - B
Economics - C
Add. Maths - C

The only subject I'm disappointed in is Economics. I like Econ. *sigh* But hey, I got an A for Maths. Hellloooooo~ as they say, "Maths kali ah...bulih kali ah...ah ah ah..." XDD And whoa, B for my sucky BM? I didn't even expect to get a credit for my malay! And check out my 3 sciences, unbelievable? Believe it. XD Sooooo taking Physics now!

Filtered

Riku just told me that she can not access my blog in school because of....'BANNED WORDS'. LOL
The school's wireless connection is filtered so basically, my blog is one of the banned sites. Ouch. I cannot believe this. But what the hey, don't care. I just find it pretty amusing when you think about it. lol.

The end. For now. I guess. XD

peke-peke-peke

LIEK...OMG!! I AM? I AM?! I AAAMMMM!!!

Please raise your ass (it rhymes much better that way) if you have once upon a time believed this.

Here's a cooler one:


Please lah, I may not be able to know that 'one plus one is equal to three' all the time but that, even an hour-old baby will realise that "How can I be the 999,999th visitor and the 10,000th at the same time? OMG I MUST HAVE MULTIPLE PERSONALITY DISORDER! WITH A MULTIPLE PERSONALITY IP ADDRESS!!" And dear person-who-likes-to-give-away-prizes, I understand, but the past is the past, let go of the year 2007 already.







Why am I doing this again? Oh yeah. 'O' level results are coming out.



ALEERTT! ALEERRTT! ALEERTT!



Okay, let me rephrase that. HOLY SHIT! DAMN 'O' LEVEL RESULTS ARE COMING THE FUCK OUT OUT!



Ah, the beauty of language. It's nice to see that sentences can turn nonsensical when you add new words in it.

POST IT!!

Finally finished watching "Su-ki-da". Can't believe I actually survived watching it. It's that type of indie movie where, as they say, "action speaks louder than words". So basialy, most of the time it was...quiet. And this is one of the times where it's just so quiet you get that "ringing" ib your ears. I originally wanted to watch it because of Miyazaki Aoi, but ended up watchng it because he the storyline. Quite a nice movie, but you have to be this "deep" sort of person to actually understand it. I had to read the comments to actually understand. lol

Other than that, Kendo CCA finally started today. Had a few problems though. Firstly, location. Can't use the audi since the seniors' graduation will be taking place in the afternoon, can't use the concourse because we ASSUME the Hadrah people are using it to practice, in the end we have to drag all our stuff from the concourse to the girl's hostel. Fuh, that was tiring.

Second problem "HOW DO WE GET IN?!" "No prob, I'll arrange some tables outside one of the open windows and you can just climb in," says some smartass. And well, we did.

Another thing was space. Damn. We had 12 kendokas on the "senior" level (LOL WHUT SENIORSZZZS?!!), and some 20+ kendo noobs. So we had to divide them. Eeek. Though we were on the "senior" side, we were still taught about basics. Eeeeek. My basics still suck. The juniors learnt ashi sabaki. Haha. And then, while the juniors had their break, we had a....some sort of practice on attacking and defending on our own with patners. Kinda like jigeiko but with limited space? Um, wtf am I saying? At least I think that's what they wanted us to do. I didn't really get the whole thing but I just, somehow, made Katak fell for me. Why? She likes my kiai-ing voice. Makes her heart go "hirahira" and "dokidoki". Double eek? Of course, that was JUST A JOKE, right?

...Yeah. I want money. I think I'm going to suck at that mini-maths test. Results are coming. I am going to diiieeee.

I like Hamasaki Ayumi. I like Horikita Maki. I like YUI. I like Miyazaki Aoi. I am...not trying to sound...*gay* but I am seriously attracted to these women. LOL. OMGISHOULDSHUTUP.

At school...

Boohoohoo. I feel hyper and depressed at the same time. I don;t know why. I've been cursing alot lately. Especially in class. ESPECIALLY during GP. Now why would I do that? Well, mainly because I was lonely. I don't know anyone there. I mean, it's like, "yeah, I know her." "Yeah, him." "Huh, who?" So basically, feeling isolated and all that crap, I can only curse my way through time until the last minute of the period. See, I need friends. I feel demotivated without friends. Without friends, I don't talk. And it is definitely hard for me to make new friends. I'm a shy girl. That is definitely weird for me to say, considering the fact I am pretty noisy with my friends. I think "ego" is the right word. I don't talk to people unless they talk to me first. See, there's this thing with me. A habit that I cant seem to shake off. It's like a silent challenge in my mind when I meet someone new. The one who talks first lose. It's a mask ontop of a mask. It's sad. But true.

Other than that, I guess I don't have problems with the other subjects. YET. Mainly because I have a few friends in that class. But maths is...hmm. There's this other thing. I would rather sit with people I don' know than with friends who aren't even talking to you, maybe because they're busy talking o their other friends, or whatever. That's why I moved away from that seat today, of course, with some lame excuses. Not like that person noticed I was gone, anyway.

Phone thing. The "No phones" thing. Damn. It's so hard to live by that. But nevertheless, today I still brought my phone to school. I had to. No, I did not brought it because it's the most "in-thing" right now. You know, "Hey, lets break the rules by bringing our phones to school because it's cool to break the rules" in-thing. It is because it's still early in the year, I am still not sure of our schedules, so therefore I still need to contact my parents about what time I go home. No. I'm not going to use the school phone, now that is maybe because it's not cool. Whatever.

It's such a twisted truth.

Ah, the issues of teenager. Everything seems to be like a big deal. Sadly, it is. Blame our hormones.

My First Day

was very normal to say the least. I found out that I'm in T1I with Pinji and wan and Katak! yay! Other than them...I hardly know anyone else. 0_O I'm the only Econ student in that class. And when I check the other classes, eeeeek, the other econ students are the already smart ones. I only took it out of pure interest, but dude. HEEELP. I suppose my subject combination is weird. Bio+Econ+Maths+GP? ANTAH EH.



We had a briefing in the morning. Whoa. Were the teachers talking. I don't like the fact that we have to move from one class to another for every subject. Good thing is, I have Econ and GP in the same class and they're both on the same floor as our Bio lab, both classes on the first floor. Except Maths which is on the second floor, same level as my registration class room. And on most days, I have Econ and GP next to each other. Fuuh. Now my only complaint is that there is no air-conditioner in my class, and the place where I sat at had a dead fan!



I was supposed to sit with Pinji and Wana, but guess what happened?



Her: Whose bag is that? *points to my bag on the table*

Me: It's mine.

Her: Oh, okay. *puts her bag on the same table*

Me: What are you doing?

Her: Oh, I wanna sit here. You can sit there with XXXXXX.

Me: .... D:

Um, can I just say, "FUCK YOU, BIATCH!"? But being the nice girl I am, I said "Okay." And took the seat near the dead fan. Damn her.


Please, tell me I'm not the only one whose getting more annoyed by her day by day.

We also had CCA registration, and of course I picked Kendo. Um. There were quite a number of newcomers, but I don't think it reached 40. Most were lower secondary students, and and lets hope we won't be the oldest age group again because some PU2s signed up too, and lets hope these guys last unlike the girls last year, excluding Fadhil who's been with us since last year. Oh yeah, he bought a bokuto in Japan D: A BLACK bokuto.

Anyway, after the CCA registration, most of us chose to just stay in that class and talk since we had nothing else to do. Time reached 12.30 and the only ones left were Reef, Jyn, Fadhil and me. So what the heck. Story-telling time. Mainly about Fadhil-in-Japan and How-Jyn-Got-The-Scar. Went on and on and on. And finally, our tummies rang. XD So I met up with Lylah in the canteen, saw Izzah before she went into her lab, and bought some food. And since I was with her, of course, what else, mengumpat-ing time. No one in particular. Just about the public clinics. Bleh.

Went home around 5. Then, my parents and I got ready for the tahlil at my late uncle's house. Nothing interesting happened. Just some which I don't really dare say. XD But, when we had to go, and I had to salam everyone, the things they did, oh god, just made me remember Zati's post. The were all "bah"-ing each other. I was the only teenager over there. The rest were a.d.u.l.t.s. So, I guess when I said "Bah!" mockingly out loud to this aunt of mine, she was...surprised? XD And started laughing uncontrollably. "Barutah ku mendangar suaranya niii!" Haha WTF. I guess I've always been the quiet one among them. And that was when everyone realised that Bruneians have been using the word "Bah" too much. Yet, that didn't stop them. I said it was so "typically bruneian". They said it's "uniquely bruneian". I say ""MANASAJA TAH".

THE END.

HAPPY (belated) NEW YEAR.

SCHOOL TOMORROW! SCHOOL TOMORROW!

DDDDDD: AHHHHHHH~!!!!

I am honestly quite excited, really. But scared at the same time. Boo.

My mum's birthday was three days ago, on SUnday. It was 3 days ago, right? Whatever. LOL My dad just randomly decided to take us to the beach, so we went to Muara Beach. We ate and then went to the sea shore. Just sat n the logs and enjoying the view. Oh, not to forget, we also went vain-ing. Expecially my mum, the birthday girl.

We actually had fun as a family. Only Udin didn't join us, as usual. One day, maybe he will be able to go out with us, then finally, we will be one complete family.

Okay, drama over. Haha I must talk about the cake we bought for my mum. Dad gave my sis and I $40 and choose a cake from Le Apple. Then came the part where we have to give the wordings on the cake, muahahaha, do we have an evil mind. Well, I did. My sister didn't actually agree. I told them to put "Happy 25th Birthday, Babu!" And asked them to write the '25' extra large. MUAHAHAHA. Boy, were my parents amused. My mum even took a picture of it and used it as her phone wallpaper. XDDD

I wanted to upload it, but screw the lost USB cable.

The next day, 31s of Dec, I was supposed to go to JP with Man, Nunu and Qil. But we canceled it. WHich is a good thing, because in replacement, My parents and I went to Dynasty. LOL First time eathing things other than Dim Sum over there, and boy, I don't know, but never in a restaurant I visit would they pull the bones out of the fish for you. XDD

We had a conversation about what our dream houses are. And then my mum 'planned' my future. At 18, I should enter one of the top universities of the world, by 22 I should have a degree, and then get a Master's degree by the age of 23, and at 24 years old, I should already have my own PhD. By 25, I will be working and finally my mum will be willing to retire, and live in a her dream house which I will be building.

...OMG. Talk about pressure.

Yeah, HAHAHAHA YES, my last day of work today. Seriously, when first asked for this job, I was supposed to do office work only, meaning no contact with customer. Which is a good thing. Which is why I accepted. HOWEVER< due to the lack of staff, I had to help in the shop too. And I ended up spending the last 3 days recording down titles of books. By toda, I finished recording 1542 titles. NOT LYING. I was tired. She has too may books, too little space. SHe's suppose to display the books' covers, not the sides. Why else would people design the covers in cool ways? Anyway, I can so not wait to get paid. XDD